for those at work who see me everyday i think it's hard to tell, but the past few weeks it feels like i've been under some magical spell...
was it the fun?
or is it something else...?
well whatever it is, my mind now resembles mush from overusage. departure for Japan is less than a month away now...(where did the time go?)...and yet there just doesn't seem to be much excitement/anxiety sinking in about this new adventure. when i was waiting 3 months ago i figured my mind would be on thoughts of Japan; excited about what i'll eat, where i'll live, where to visit and what to do...but in reality...nyeh, it's not so much like that at all.
oh i'm sure i'll feel it eventually, once i get on the plane perhaps...but for now at least, (hmmm, how to describe...) i just can't help feeling a bit like this:
(truly worth 1000 words!)
still, in a sense everything is moving along fine; got contacted by the school there, been corresponding via email w/ the current/returning JETs about living conditions, dress code etc...stuff seems to be lining up quite well.
i worry about all that i don't want to leave behind...but i guess this is my newest test of faith...to leave matters in the hands of Someone much more capable and infinitely wiser than i.
"how did this happen...
this dream, come true?
i'm holding my breath now,
until
i wake up..."
(from Falling into Space - March 2005)
hmmm...imagine if i fell asleep here, and and then found myself waking up in Japan.
that'd be kinda funny.
wouldn't it?
*Random: wow. today is like, the first time i've worn pants to work in over a month.